don't hate obedience
Allah says: They dislike striving with their wealth and themselves in the way of Allah (At-Taubah: 81)
Also: They do not spend except unwillingly (At-Taubah: 54)
(from Syajaratul Ma‘arif, Syaikh al-‘Izz bin Abdus Salam)
When the heart resists obedience, it shows pride.
Feeling like we are nobody makes obedience lighter, not heavy.